Posts tagged ‘truth’

Heart vs. Brain – Feel vs. Logic

When making decisions, be honest, do you go with what you feel or what you think? For me personally, I always choose heart over brain, feeling over thinking. All the time. I can’t recommend it for everyone, especially not the faint hearted. I can’t promise happiness if you choose this path, but the pain also remains uncertain. When choosing logic however, happiness is much further off the path, but there is even less pain involved. Now if you read back over what I just wrote, it looks like there is no difference. Actually it even looks like that for me, even though I wrote the thing. But I swear, there is a whole other world of difference between those two explanations. I’m going to attempt to get into that, and you know me, the only way I can do that is by talking about my personal experiences. But, as always, I will do my best to write about it.

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Apologies

Okay the above picture has nothing to do with anything, I just liked the colours and have always had a fascination for that old TV thing. I apologize for the absence of posts, I know some of you can’t live without reading my thoughts. Haha. Everything has just been so … there’s really no other word for it, hectic, lately. I’ve been going to bed at close to 6 am, having to wake up at 9 most days, being a zombie till about 2 pm then I go to work, come home around 7, eat dinner, try to kick-start my league career by practicing with my friends and by the time that’s all done, it’s about 11 to 12. I’ve been very emotionally drained lately, and mustering enough feeling to write a post just hasn’t been in me. I don’t want to write posts just because I have a blog with some readers, I want to write posts that I find meaningful, as well as an enjoyable read for my faithful fans. To be able to do this requires time, a bit of patience, soul searching and transforming feeling into written word, a process which takes an unexpectedly heavy toll mentally as well as emotionally. To those who still check religiously, thank you, I appreciate your interest in my writing 🙂

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Sleepless

Here we go, it’s finally catching up to me. All the sleepless nights have left me physically fatigued, but oh no, never mentally and emotionally, which is what I need to feel in order to get a good night’s sleep. I’ve honestly stopped counting the number of hours I get each night, all I know is that before I actually fall asleep, I hear birds tweeting and the sunlight creeping past my blinds. Then I get depressed before I enter that sleep state because I know I’ve gotten maybe a few hours at best. Just so you guys know, this is going to be a ramble-y post, with no particular topic in mind or poignant discussions. There will be no thought-provoking questions, no crazy feeling talk, no making you look back on your own life and prodding through memories. Just good old fashion rambling about sleepless nights. If you don’t want to read past this sentence, I swear I completely understand. I’m good like that.

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Is Love Worth Taking Risks For?

To my faithful readers, I know you guys are out there, don’t be ashamed…Haha, I’m sorry for the wait. Everything’s been hectic at home and everywhere else I just haven’t really found the time to sit down and muster my feelings and write a nice blog post for all of you to read. At least, to the ones that enjoy reading sappy rambles about my never-ending drama  and my struggle to contain my feelings for my best friend, who I’m not talking to for the rest of my life. Apparently so. That’s a nice little nutshell. Anyway, it was my birthday around a week ago, and I told her not to message me a happy birthday, even though she wanted to. I was secretly waiting for a message, I’m not going to lie. It never came though. I wanted to message her so bad. I still do.

Anyway, I just wanted to pose you guys a question. A lot of people I talk to have differing opinions on this. Some say that love isn’t enough to carry relationships; you need everything else like money, harmony in your relationships with your lover’s family and continuously working on yourself and your lover’s partnership. A good amount of people though, argue that if you have immense love between you and your lover, everything else falls into place. There would be no need for these materialisms and other aspects, as love itself is able to carry the entire relationship on its back. Now with both of these opinions in mind, do you think that love itself is worth taking risks for? Is it worth putting yourself out there with the possible promise of pain or bliss?

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Routine – A way of life

***Warning: Geez, I’m on a roll with these personal posts***

How many of you wake up in the morning at the same time every day? I’m guilty of that. How many of you do the exact same thing after waking up? Guilty. How many of you have a morning ritual that you must do before you start your day? Again, guilty. How many of you go to work or do practically the same thing every day, only to wake up and repeat the process the next day? My guess is that everyone reading my blog right now answered in the affirmative to all these questions. There is something unique in the way everyone leads a different life, but are bound by a particular set of habits or activities that carries through day after day, week after week, months after months and year after year. You can argue that these people are too scared to break out of habit and are simply under the control of their fate, or you can say that they are just living their life, unparalleled in their own way, the masters of their own destiny. But even after all this, we have no choice but to agree that at some point, the lives we lead are run by the grace and harmony of routine.

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Feelings And Memories

***Warning: Another personal post ahead***

I’m pretty sure that most everybody in the world associates a memory with a certain feeling. I mean, apart from the people who have the ability of perfect recall, I’m fairly sure that it’s not easy to remember the exact details of a particular memory. Sure you remember it days after it happened, weeks, months and years even, but through the slow passage of time, the particular details of that memory start fading away. Where it happened, what was happening around you, all the smells, the touches, the sounds eventually just becomes a giant blur in your mind. This is just the way of life. The little details of the memory become less important as time goes on. Once the memory gets worn down to its very basic core, you will find that there are two things that just simply will never escape your mind no matter what you do: who you shared that memory with and how it made you feel.

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Passage Of Time

How fitting that I should write about the passage of time on my birthday. I’m 23 this year. Damn, I’m moving on up in life.

I know you’re all going to agree when I say that time itself is a cruel female dog. Yeah, I have to keep the language PG-13, you never know what kids are up to nowadays. They could be being awesome and reading my PG-13 blog, or just being lame and doing anything else on the computer. Anyway, the passage of time has to be one of the worst things about living. Like seriously. When you’re enjoying yourself, time flies. When you’re miserable, it crawls. How unfair is that? Time is one of the few things in life that actually has the power to change anything and everything, depending on how you use it. It can affect your life in such a way that would make you rethink everything; from the way you’ve lived to how and where you are right now. It’s frightening.

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